Despite the promises that God has told us about His love for us, it can be difficult for some of us to accept it.
Why is that?
I don’t think I’m alone when I say that when you’ve been hurt in a very real way by many people, in a harsh and unforgiving world…it becomes harder and harder to believe that God really loves you.
I know this because I struggled with this for most of my life.
It becomes easy to ask questions like,
“Why did this happen to me?”
“Why didn’t God rescue me from _______?”
“Where was God during ________?”
These are perfectly understandable questions that would be raised for anyone who has been hurt, which is everyone.
One person in the Bible who really struggled with this was Saul.
We know that Saul came from a wealthy family and was “religious” in his obedience to God. When I say “religious,” I mean that he somewhat tried to look like a Christian on the outside but really was struggling on the inside.
Saul never really seemed to fully accept God’s love and that became more evident as he became Israel’s first king appointed by God.
Saul’s struggles can help us understand and point out some of the signs of a person who is having difficulties accepting God’s love into his or her heart.
1. Are you very Compulsive?
One of the major struggles that Saul dealt with as a King was that he was compulsive. He often acted quickly without consulting God and I believe that is largely due to the fact that he never really accepted God’s love into his heart.
This made him very compulsive because he probably felt like he couldn’t trust God, therefore, he did what he wanted, on his timetable.
2. Do you get Jealous easily?
Despite the tremendous blessings God bestowed upon Saul (handsome, tall, and first king of Israel), Saul never really trusted God. When David killed Goliath there was a huge parade!
But what about Saul? He became extremely jealous of David because his one victory trumped all of Saul’s victories. Jealousy is a huge sign that you haven’t fully accepted God’s love.
When we are truly content in our relationship with God, we no longer feel a need to compare ourselves to others. Furthermore, being content in our relationship with God allows us to support and help fellow believers in their walk with God. We then don’t get jealous when they prosper and succeed even if we may not be.
3. Self-doubt and Insecurity?
Saul struggled with self-doubt and insecurity and this particularly showed when he was king. His jealous comparisons with David, his constant lying, and how he often choose his own way over God’s, suggested a person who was struggling with an internal conflict.
Beneath the layers of Saul’s glamourous image, was someone who had a lack of faith in God. Saul never truly accepted God’s love in his heart and when you really think about that, you almost feel sad for him.
What does that say about us?
God can bless us with the most glorious of riches but we can still choose to not fully accept God’s love in our hearts.
Whatever the reasons are that prevent you from fully accepting God’s love, whether its due to a hurt you experienced when you were younger and can’t seem to get over it, whether its due to sin, or maybe you just don’t believe in God to begin with.
Whatever the reason, God will always love you and through a daily process of vocalization, scriptural reading, and prayer, you can begin to take steps to fully accept and experience God’s love in your life, no matter how bad your past was, where you are now, or whatever you have done.
I hope this helped you today. Click here to discover what steps you can do to begin fully accepting God’s love into your heart!
Do you struggle with fully accepting God’s love into your heart?